8 months of ice skating
So... I guess it has been 8 months since my last post. Can I wear that as a badge of pride, like how long it's been since someone in AA has had a drink?
And I'd like to say that I've been finishing my novel and selling it during those 8 months but I am a lousy liar.
Sometimes, life just gets in the way and you just have to drop all your expectations and the expectations of others and fall back and down. And then you hope you have the strength to come out through the other side. Like you're the female in a ice skating pairs duo and you're being thrown off your skating partner's shoulders and through his legs--and you don't want your ass to drag on the ice in this process because, um, OW--and then you're supposed to do a little spin in the air before sticking a landing on one skate with your other leg perfectly extended at a 90 degree angle and smile like you are sponsored by a toothpaste company.
So that's what I've been up to, falling back and down and tossed through and out. And I definitely made some contact on my butt and I didn't quite spin the full 360 degrees, and I know I'm barely coasting on that one foot and my other leg is more at a 45 degree angle... And I keep getting the eye from my toothpaste sponsors because I'm so focused on trying not to bite it that I forgot all about them, so my smiles have been a little spastic.
But I'm still upright and soon, I'll be ready to put my other foot down and free skate. And when I do that, you better bet I will be finishing my book and doing amazing things from the volition and strength of my own two skates. Things I want to do and that I don't have to do and that I can quit doing if I don't want to do them any more. But I will finish the book and then I will coerce myself to edit book a lot. And I think I'd like to take scuba lessons. Or dance lessons. Or wood shop. Or go to Costa Rica--wait, just did that! Blogging? We shall see. Blog v.s. salsa v.s. novel... Hmm, something tells me blogging isn't going to win that show down. Yes, we shall see.
And I'd like to say that I've been finishing my novel and selling it during those 8 months but I am a lousy liar.
Sometimes, life just gets in the way and you just have to drop all your expectations and the expectations of others and fall back and down. And then you hope you have the strength to come out through the other side. Like you're the female in a ice skating pairs duo and you're being thrown off your skating partner's shoulders and through his legs--and you don't want your ass to drag on the ice in this process because, um, OW--and then you're supposed to do a little spin in the air before sticking a landing on one skate with your other leg perfectly extended at a 90 degree angle and smile like you are sponsored by a toothpaste company.
So that's what I've been up to, falling back and down and tossed through and out. And I definitely made some contact on my butt and I didn't quite spin the full 360 degrees, and I know I'm barely coasting on that one foot and my other leg is more at a 45 degree angle... And I keep getting the eye from my toothpaste sponsors because I'm so focused on trying not to bite it that I forgot all about them, so my smiles have been a little spastic.
But I'm still upright and soon, I'll be ready to put my other foot down and free skate. And when I do that, you better bet I will be finishing my book and doing amazing things from the volition and strength of my own two skates. Things I want to do and that I don't have to do and that I can quit doing if I don't want to do them any more. But I will finish the book and then I will coerce myself to edit book a lot. And I think I'd like to take scuba lessons. Or dance lessons. Or wood shop. Or go to Costa Rica--wait, just did that! Blogging? We shall see. Blog v.s. salsa v.s. novel... Hmm, something tells me blogging isn't going to win that show down. Yes, we shall see.
posted by Jess | 11:33 PM
2 Comments:
YAAAAAAYYYYYY welcome back to blogging! You're funny and smart and eloquent and wise and observant and I like to read you! POSITIVE REINFORCEMENT POSITIVE REINFORCEMENT POSITIVE REINFORCEMENT. Did that work? :)
we'll see. I want to work on a nonfiction piece so maybe I'll play with it up here. It's been brewing since June, and fermenting nicely in my head.
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